The year I seek to be…

I’ve never named a year before. At least not concretely. Though my introspective nature seems to work overtime as one year comes to a close and a new year dawns. As I reflect from where I’ve come and look ahead to where I am going, I find that a particular desire comes into sharper focus than others. It is not so much a resolution, as though I can achieve such a thing; rather, it is something bigger than me spiritually that I seek to grasp, perhaps just a little bit more firmly than ever before.

I can hardly articulate how I’ve come to decide on this first ever naming of a year. My mind has been wandering in so many directions this week and I really didn’t put much thought into coming up with a name until today.

I’ve been thinking about wants and dreams, some so old and unfulfilled I wonder if they are ever meant to be. Others so new and fresh I am not sure if they’re not just passing whims.

I’ve been licking a few wounds, too. Wounds that needed to be inflicted so that they might be properly tended to by the Healer, who changes the heart in the process of stitching up wounds.

Today, as I read Ann’s invitation to share a name for the new year, it only took moments for the muddled thoughts to focus on my greatest need: God alone. To seek and find my satisfaction in Him alone.

My wandering heart often turns in every direction but His. I am prone to seek contentment in things. I am prone to seek worth in my abilities. I am prone to seek praise from creatures instead of the Creator. I am prone to soothe disappointments and anxiety with food. God is never enough.

Yes, my heart is prone to wander. To seek idols that make empty promises. Idols that never truly satisfy.

Who is He who satisfies? Christ alone.

Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will beĀ satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. – Psalm 63:3-5

And there it is. So simple, yet so challenging. Certainly beyond a resolution, a goal to reach for. It’s a state of being to take hold of.

And so, the name is Satisfied. For me, 2011 will be the year I seek to be SATISFIED in Christ alone.

God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. – John Piper

Have you ever named a year? What name have you chosen for 2011?

In hope,

About Shelli Bourque

An ordinary girl living by the grace of life in Christ. Adoring wife and mom. Lover of quiet places and uncluttered spaces. Beauty seeker and image maker.