Pride: The Root of Perfectionism

A number of years ago, God took me on a crash course in humility. Day after day, as I spent an hour each way to and from work praying to Him about all my frustrations and trials, He revealed to me that at the root of my strife was my own pride. Ouch! Over the course of several months, God graciously showed me that my life revolved around me, instead of Him. At the center of my attention were my thoughts, my wants, my anger, my bitterness, and my unforgiveness. As He peeled away the layers of sin, I was finally forced to face my pride. Cutting out the root of pride brought a freedom in Christ I … [Read more...]

Perfectionism: The Mask of Insecurity

Having never considered myself an artist, I was stunned by Beth Moore's statement in So Long, Insecurity: Insecurity's best cover is perfectionism. That's where it becomes an art form. She prefaced her statement with this: Some of us never seek healing from God for our insecurities because we feel like we don't fit the profile. We think insecurity only looks one way--mousy, maybe even inept--and that's not exactly who we see in the mirror. At least not once the mascara's on. And it certainly is not the woman we present to the public. (p.19) I knew I had some insecurities, but I … [Read more...]

Radical Weirdness

To our family that already thinks we are weird, we are about to get more weird.¬†God has been working in our hearts and is bringing about a radical change in our thoughts, dreams and the direction of our lives. The change has been gradual over the past six months, but has been brought to a crescendo with reading David Platt's book, Radical. I was inspired by¬†Kristen to share this video here on my blog, to give you a taste of the change that is going on in us. Dr. Platt's message haunts me. And so today we officially begin the Radical Experiment. Anyone care to get weird with … [Read more...]

One Thousand Gifts

There are three requisites to the proper enjoyment of earthly blessings: a thankful reflection on the goodness of the giver; a deep sense of our own unworthiness; and a recollection of the uncertainty of our long possessing them. The first will make us grateful; the second, humble; and the third, moderate. - Hannah Moore 316. Living Proof Live 317. Radical 318. dreaming new dreams 319. walk with a friend 320. answered prayer 321. praising God even when the answer is no Seeds of discouragement will not grow in the thankful heart. - Anonymous 322. God's faithful sovereignty 323. … [Read more...]

An Artist of Highest Degree

I would never be mistaken for an artist. I am definitely more the left-brained, analytical type. In fact, my attempt to make a scrapbook for my children made it quite clear that having to think creatively stresses me out. I'll stick to balancing my checkbook, thank you very much. So imagine my surprise as I read Beth Moore's So Long Insecurity and came across these words: Insecurity's best cover is perfectionism. That's where it becomes an art form. Several months ago I began reading Beth's book with high expectations. I wanted to get a firm understanding of insecurity. What exactly it … [Read more...]

One Thousand Gifts :: How to Overcome Discontentment

It came out of nowhere, this tidbit of news. Surprising? Yes! Exciting? Definitely. But it was news of another, excitement for another; not for me. And in the learning of it, a gasp escapes from my lips. Children quickly ask what it is. I share the news in plain words. Daughter, the tender one who listens past the words and hears the voice that betrays the heart, says, "Are you jealous?" She perceives far beyond her age, yet is not hindered by years that teach us to stifle our thoughts, and her words cut to the quick. "Yes." For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. - … [Read more...]

One Thousand Gifts :: Abundance All Around

The discipline of gratitude is the explicit effort to acknowledge that all I am and have is given to me as a gift of love, a gift to be celebrated with joy. - Henri J.M. Nouwen Perhaps it's because spring comes so much later to our northern state, or perhaps because flowers bring me such joy, but I was completely smitten this week with a walk around our yard to delight in its sights and smells 278. rhododendrons in full bloom 279. crab apple flowers 280. I couldn't get enough of them 281. so sweetly bursting forth against a blue sky 282. I couldn't get enough of her … [Read more...]

One Thousand Gifts :: Spring

Warmer days, a sun that lingers before bidding good night, grass greening, tree buds swelling. It's easy to be grateful during the Spring. Yet, how often have I taken it for granted? How many times have I not spoken words of gratitude to the Giver of all good things {James 1:17}? That pattern of sin is broken, as I count up my list of One Thousand Gifts: 260. raindrops on budding branches 261. opening windows to let in warm breezes 262. grass growing 263. and already needing to be cut twice 264. flowers from my man 265. and more flowers 266. sunrise that stuns me with … [Read more...]

Letting Go

My little boy isn't so little any more. In fact, he's only one half inch shorter than I; and at 5'8" I'm pretty tall. And he's going to be 13 in a couple weeks. How in the world did he get to be a teenager so quickly!? Yet, he seems very much like my little boy today because he's going on his very first trip, without us, away from home (except for a night at one grandma's or the other). And I am having to take a new step in letting go. His weekend will be full of learning and adventure as he travels with our church's youth group to a Christian camp. He's going to a place I trust, with … [Read more...]