My One Word for 2013: Faithful

It is usually so much easier to see things with clarity when looking in hindsight. Seeing sin is no different.

When in the midst of sin, we are so focused on our ourselves, our wants, our desires, and our affections, that we don’t see clearly what is painfully obvious in hindsight.

I spent years living in a sin I couldn’t see—discontentment. Many years ago, I lived with discontentment in things. I remember thinking, “If only I had ________, I would be happy.” I’ve long since confessed that sin, and overcome it, for the most part. Things don’t have near the attraction they once did.

Having victory over the sin of discontentment in the past, it never occurred to me that I could fall into the same sin again. It crept up, disguised; I didn’t recognize it. This time it was not things that fueled my sin, it was circumstances.

I was discontent with my job; discontent with my church; discontent with my town. Loss upon loss clouded my vision. For a time, all I could think about was moving. “If only I could have a fresh start, I would be happy.”

Discontentment is an ugly sin. At its root is a lack of trust in God’s sovereignty. It is doubting His love and distrusting His faithfulness.

Thankfully, “if we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself.” (2 Timothy 2:13) Thankfully is hardly a strong enough word to express the gratitude for that truth. He IS faithful. Always. Even when I am not.

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Two years ago, for the first time, I chose to name the year. My word was Satisfied. In 2011, I spent the year seeking to be satisfied in God alone. Again, in 2012, I named the year; this time choosing the word Reach. I spent the year reaching up and reaching out, reaching past my fears.

Though it was never my focus in either of the these two years, God used my desire to be satisfied in Him to overcome my longing to be satisfied in my circumstances; and He used reaching out to others to cause me to truly see them again, and to love them. Gradually, as quietly as the sin of discontentment crept in, it fled. Not in one moment of realization, not even in a moment of confession. In the mysterious working of the Spirit, He changed my heart. I cannot pinpoint a day, I cannot even narrow it down to a month, but sometime this year my discontentment turned to contentment, and my contentment turned to delight.

I am so thankful for my job. I have the deepest affection for my church. I am completely devoted to our small town life.

I spent too many years longing for another life. Too many years being unfaithful to the life God had called me to live. Instead of changing my life, God changed me. He has caused me to love the life He has provided. When I was faithless, He was faithful.

Now it’s time for me to be faithful. To be faithful to the One who has been faithful all along. To be faithful to the work He has given. To be faithful to serve those whom God has placed in my path.

So I am embracing the gift of His faithfulness and naming this year Faithful. My desire for 2013 is to grow in faithfulness to the One who endlessly faithful.

I hope you’ll join me through this journey and share your own stories of faithfulness.

Many thanks to Melanie at Only a Breath, for generously providing free One Word blog buttons. It’s a beautiful design, isn’t it? Please visit her to get one for yourself.

What is your One Word for 2013?

In hope,
Shelli

About Shelli Bourque

An ordinary girl living by the grace of life in Christ. Adoring wife and mom. Lover of quiet places and uncluttered spaces. Beauty seeker and image maker.

Comments

  1. “At its root is a lack of trust in God’s sovereignty” – what a beautiful and convicting statement. Wishing you many blessings as you strive for faithfulness!

  2. A great word for 2013. Happy New Year and God Bless you!

  3. What a great word!!! I can relate to most of your post as I spent many years in depression. Not satisfied with life. But again God was faithful.

  4. Faithful is my word too! So, I will be stopping by on occasion for inspiration! 🙂