In Which I Decided Not to Bury Myself in a Hole

Not long ago (okay, it was forever and a day) I was conflicted about where to go with my blog. What would be its purpose? What would be its theme?

Then after a sleepless night, I knew the answer. And promptly made my first mistake: I opened my big mouth and told everyone {all 10 of you dear ones who stop by here to read – and I thank you for that, by the way!} that the details would be coming soon. Why make a promise like that? Why lead you along, on the edge of your seat, waiting in anxious anticipation? Why put that kind of pressure on myself? What was I thinking?

And then. Then. I had to make my second mistake and say it would be smart, creative, and witty. I stopped myself at brilliant; but, come on, who sets themselves up like that? Besides a neophyte blogger who doesn’t think before she speaks? And a recovering perfectionist, at that, who would rather be buried alive than think that she might let someone down and have them think badly of her.

This, not surprisingly, led to my third mistake: being so fearful that the heretofore promised details would not live up to the heretofore promised quality, that I procrastinated so long that every one of you has long since given up, having passed out from holding your breath while waiting on the edge of your seat; or, has allowed the wait to intensify your expectation of the level of quality so much that you will now be subject to even greater disappointment, which will surely lead you to think even more badly of me than if I had disappointed you before such intensification of expectation had time to occur.

Where is the nearest hole? Please excuse me while I go bury myself.

On second thought, this isn’t about me. At least I don’t want it to be. I’m a work in progress, who sometimes forgets that my eyes don’t belong on myself and what I think, or how I feel. I have to take my eyes off myself and place them where they belong – on the Lord.

So, I’ll not bury myself. At least not today. Instead, I’ll take a deep breath and share with you what you can expect when you decide to visit this little space in a very big blog world.

{In the next post.}

About Shelli Bourque

An ordinary girl living by the grace of life in Christ. Adoring wife and mom. Lover of quiet places and uncluttered spaces. Beauty seeker and image maker.