Dare I Ask?

Dare I ask when I am in need?

Dare I admit that I have need? That I cannot handle life on my own? That sorrow, frustration, anger, impatience, guilt. They wash over me endlessly.

I cannot cope. But dare I confess it?

To admit that every moment is beyond my ability to even live, for my very breath itself is a gift and not of myself?

Dare I ask of God to wake me, sustain me, fill me for today? To not allow me to float adrift in a wild world and in my own wild sin?

How silly to ask these questions. Of course, I dare ask. I must ask!

Yet every day that I wake and begin my day without prayer, without communing with God, are not these the days that I pretend I have no need? Are not these the days I forget that I am just a branch and begin to fancy myself as the vine?

I must never forget that if God is the Giver of all things. I must not only acknowledge the gifts with gratitude, but I must also acknowledge my endless need with prayer. I must profess my love, confess my sin, and ask. Ask!

I must ask the Giver to give me life today. This day. For yesterday’s manna cannot be saved for today. Yesterday’s breath is no guarantee that there will be breath today. I must ask!

Amazingly, God mercifully gives me breath on the days I do not ask. This makes the asking seem unnecessary, doesn’t it? When you are a branch, it is so easy to take the vine for granted.

Yet, in order to remain on the vine, I mustn’t take it for granted. I must recognize my connection to the vine through prayer. And I must ask for the sustaining power of the vine. Every day. All day.

Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. – Psalm 143:8

Dare I ask?

How dare I not?

In hope,

About Shelli Bourque

An ordinary girl living by the grace of life in Christ. Adoring wife and mom. Lover of quiet places and uncluttered spaces. Beauty seeker and image maker.


  1. Thank you for this post! I needed this conviction- though I know that was not your intention- just the Holy Spirit’s work 🙂 I have been sleeping through my morning quiet time this week. Relying on the other reading I am doing throughout the day (Bible in 90 Days) to fill my “time with God quota.” How sad! And I am seeing the effects of not abiding, praying, worshiping. So off the computer I go to get to bed early enough to get up on time to meet with Him tomorrow!

    • I hope you woke up to a great time with the Lord! 🙂 Truly, this was a message I needed for myself! But I am so glad it helped you, too. It’s so hard for me to slow down long enough to really pray; I am always go, go, go, rush, rush, rush. I think about God all day long, but am I really abiding in Him? God is surely working on me in this area.

  2. Shelli… I love your posts! Sometimes I think you are writing them just for me. Thanks for the encouragement and I love your new blog! Curious, tho, why did you switch to wordpress?

    • Thanks, Heidi! Switching to WordPress is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. It wasn’t long after I started blogging that “everyone” seemed to be switching. I’ve owned my domain name for a year and made my Blogger blog look non-bloggerish, which was easier once they beefed up their template options last year. On the one hand, I didn’t really need to switch (I am not using my blog for income, and my stats don’t warrant the switch), but I liked the look and features of WP blogs, and the security that I wouldn’t just lose my blog someday if Blogger had a server failure. Once I looked at the real cost, which wasn’t too bad since I did it myself, I decided to make the switch. Sort of an early birthday present, and my husband was very supportive. I actually really enjoyed the process of doing it – playing with the template and figuring out the html; I’m still tinkering with it and having fun!

  3. “When you are a branch, it is so easy to take the vine for granted.” – I so hear you on that!! Thank you for sharing. It’s definitely where I’m at today!!

  4. Teena says

    thinking of you… you have been on my heart. God is faithful. Rest in Him… as I tell myself too…

    I was reading over at Lindsay Nobles blog and she said to Lisa-Jo… “I know you, well kind of .. well virtually know..” I just love that and how we have connected and we do love one another… iron sharpens iron and I pray that I encourage you…. as you do me so often!